You Won't Ever Get Me Down

People have often suggested over the years that I should get more involved in society, that I could do more and that I should show more of myself and not hide away so much. It's not that I hide away, it's just most people have no idea of how reality is for someone like myself. We are different. Not special, not better or worse than anyone else, but different. Reality is different for those such as myself, or at the very least our perception of reality is different, in the sense we take in more information, we pay attention and notice more of the ways the world responds to our presence in it. Since I can't be in someone elses shoes, I've only known what it's like to exist in this particular body/mind, I don't know how reality is for most people, but from my observations over many years now it certainly seems like we experience the same world very differently.

Yesterday we filmed an acoustic performance of "Winners & Losers". It's the first performance video we've done for a while, since the last one, which was "The Last One To Leave", recorded last year.

I'm busy with other stuff behind the scenes which will be revealed in time so there hasn't been so much activity from me online in recent times but when I can, I like to keep putting something out for those who enjoy what I do and to counter all the negativity that is being put out into the world.

So, anyway, we filmed early yesterday morning, it was a sunny day, and we were happy with what we got and feeling good again, as always, when we are creating anything Music related. Walking back home after filming a young guy was coming towards us on the path and he had two rottweiler dogs with him, which I didn't notice at first because a fence was covering his legs. I carried on walking waiting for him to move to one side of the path and he was obviously waiting on me to move. When he got up closer I saw the two dogs and stepped to the side to let him pass. As he passed us I heard him mutter "fucking idiots". I looked around and we made eye contact but both walked on. For a moment I felt like responding but thought better of it. We had our gear with us, I had my guitar, and he had two rottweiler dogs but I was pissed off because one thing I really have trouble tolerating is people who do shit like that for no reason. People who are just rude, obnoxious or complete assholes for no reason whatsoever. I often have to become very present in those moments to avoid anything escalating.

Now I know by now that these incidents are more than what they appear. What I feel happened is when we film a video or do something creatively successful in the Music, we put out a vibe. A higher vibrational vibe which is more than just the physical act. We kind of raise the vibration of the environment around us. Those with low vibrational energy coming into our energy field often become angry, agitated or irritated. They then dump a whole lot of negative energy in our direction through their actions and we, being the more conscious ones, are left to clean up that energetic mess. The frustrating part is I've realised over time, nothing will make these kinds of people change. They love and enjoy being in misery and being angry and hateful. They seem to thrive on it and inviting them into a higher energy field they will always resist. They have no interest in improving themselves or raising their vibration so they just pollute this world with their presence.

Only now do I understand it and can speak about it like this but it's been going on my whole life and I realise it's the main reason why I have to do things in my own way, sidestepping getting too involved in society. When I was 19, I remember walking through this park near where I lived on a sunny day, simply intending to go out for a walk. This guy was walking towards me and I sensed something wasn't right with him but before I knew it he'd veered over the path to where I was and smacked me right in the head with a punch. Before I realised fully what had happened he was on his way behind me. I was enraged and considered going after him but let it go. Years later when I was busking, in 2019, I was playing one day on Princes Street with my electric guitar and amp. This guy was walking by eating McDonalds fries or something and he threw one at my face as I was playing. Similarly I was enraged and had to become very present to stay calm. I was so close to calling him out over the mic (but didn't want to cause a scene with so many children and old people going by) or stopping in the middle of the performance and racing after him so I could smash him over the head with my guitar. I didn't because I couldn't leave my stuff unattended so he was lucky. In all these incidents I always notice there is something that gets in the way preventing it escalating. The guy with the two rottweilers... I doubt he'd have had the guts to call me a "fucking idiot" if he was on his own. Easy to act the hardman when you have two vicious dogs there. Easy to throw a chip at someone who is in the middle of performing. These kinds of people are scum of this Earth. Lowest of the low. Total cowards inside. I would destroy them with words given a chance, it wouldn't even need to get physical.

It's not that I'm afraid of these characters, it's just I can't be bothered with the hassle of it. That's why I avoid them and try to avoid those situations wherever I can because I'm not looking for conflict. It's amazing how in all these occasions I am simply doing nothing, just being myself, or creating something joyful and uplifting. It really demonstrates how powerful we are because if we weren't doing something powerful they wouldn't feel threatened and feel the need to attack. It happens so many times when we make a video or do anything that is bringing forth more Truth vibrations. Often we get positive encounters on these occasions also but at the same time there are often demons lurking who make themselves known or try to disrupt in some way our vibe or what we are doing. I've spoken about this before in the online world, social media, etc where there are a lot of cowards who like to insult and disrupt but it has continually happened in the real world throughout my life. It is because people like me carry a different energy frequency to most of society and that's one of the main reasons people like myself are reclusive. We tend to try to seek out like-minded souls because we like to feel good, respected and comfortable around each other and keep the Truth vibrations flying high. So we tend to stay away from people and situations that disrupt that vibe.

Anyway, despite that little encounter, it was still a good, positive day and it won't stop us continuing. The acoustic video for "Winners & Losers" will go up soon.