"Tossed A Susan B. over my shoulder"

In 2006, a Susan came into Kate's life online, along with her French freemason boyfriend, Yohan. Pretty soon they both ended up tangled up in my life culminating in a bust-up in 2010 just before we left for Europe where SoulJahm would begin. The landlord of our first apartment, in Barcelona, was called Susanna but she wasn't present, she was in the middle-eastern country Oman. As we were waiting to check-in to the apartment in a nearby park our laptop was stolen. The name Susan and variations of it (Susanna, Suzanne, Susie, Sue) continually showed up for us in those first few years in Europe wherever we went. So much so that I wrote this song:

The interesting thing is the Susan B. Kate brought into my life accused me of being "obsessed" with her during our fall-out in 2010. A year earlier she had told me "you have a lot going for you, I've seen you ;)". This implied as well as seeing me on photos from Kate's facebook where they were friends, she had probably been on my music website. Yet at this time, all I knew of her was what Kate had told me/shown me and what she herself had posted on the David Icke forum, where we first interacted with each other. Now normally, I would be flattered if a woman was interested in me, and I'm not writing this to be a tell-tale but because it's such a weird situation that has had an enormous impact on my life. As it stands in 2025, it has still not been resolved. Yet I was accused of being a "creep" by her, for being "obsessed" with her.

One day probably around the years 2016 - 2017, I was listening to one of my favourite Calexico songs from an album Kate bought back in 2005. It's called 'Feast Of Wire' and the song is called "Sunken Waltz". There is a line in the song that goes "Tossed a Susan B. over my shoulder". I had not caught this lyric back in those days when I listened to it and even if I had, it wouldn't have meant anything to me. Yet on hearing it years later I couldn't believe it. I had to double-check the lyrics.

Then in 2017, I was drinking at a pub in Edinburgh with my dad and brother after we'd just been for a meal. There was a power black-out and we had to evacuate the pub. My dad decided to go home and my brother and I walked up the road and decided to stop off at another pub called The Blackbird. I was often playing The Beatles song "Blackbird" during this time when I busked. We sat out the back in the courtyard area and within minutes of us sitting down this woman, probably a few years older than me accompanied by a guy made a beeline for us and sat next to us. The woman soon started up a conversation with us and revealed her name was Susie. She told us she worked in the internet cafe next door and had just finished work. The guy was a friend of hers. When she found out we were musicians (my brother was involved playing bass with me at this time) we began discussing music. She was encouraging me to be like Coldplay, get into the industry and all of that and then I can do the indie thing once I've had some success. We scoffed at this because Coldplay's career is everything I'm against as a musician. We were arguing about this in a good-natured way for a while and she told me to bring my album ('One Way Ticket') into her cafe and she'd play it there. Then at one point the guy had to leave but Susie was enjoying herself chatting with us. He was meant to escort her home but trusted us so left her with us.

Eventually, she suggested to me and my brother that we go across the road to another pub, at that time called The Cuckoo's Nest. She told us her husband knew the bar owner. So the three of us headed there and at one point, as she was getting more drunk, she indicated to me that she was interested in me but that she couldn't because she was married with kids. I was flattered but I never did anything and just laughed it off. At one point as we were all enjoying ourselves I suggested let's go to a club. It had been years since I'd been in one (and her too) but the idea came spontaneously and I like doing things spontaneously. I like to go with the flow wherever that takes me. She was in two minds, half wanting to go but feeling responsibility to get back to her husband and kids because she was already quite a bit later than she said she'd be. In the end, we helped her to the bus stop and put her on her bus and then went home ourselves.

Finally, last year on Twitter/X I came across an account with old retro photos of Hollywood stars since I am a fan of film noir and old films. The name of the account had 'Suzanne' in it and the profile photo stood out to me. It looked almost identical to a photo I had once seen of the Susan B. who lived in Nice, France with the French freemason. Except this woman's profile said she was from Georgia, United States. What is significant about all these encounters is in that one and only message from Susan B. back in 2015, one of the things I remember her saying was "Just forget about me. I don't think you'll be able to".

Is this what she meant? All these bizarre encounters with Susan's, Susie's, Suzanne's etc. So there is something clearly going on with all of this. Is it coming from the 4D levels? Some kind of interference or manipulation? The truth of it will emerge one way or another and I write this because I wonder if anyone else out there has had similar experiences.

After Kate's death in 2014 I was led back to her and tried to initiate contact with her but she wouldn't respond. At the end of 2015 she eventually sent me one solitary, confused message on YouTube. I eventually managed to wrestle myself free of this entanglement by the beginning of 2016 and have never looked back. Still, the name Susan has continued to show up both from the past and in the present.

I was once an active member of the Frenz forum, a forum dedicated to Neil Finn, Tim Finn, Split Enz, Crowded House and associates. I stopped posting there around 2007. Yet around 2015 - 2016 I decided to go back and look over my old posts. I discovered that there had been a SueBee there who had replied to me. I don't think it was the same Susan B. who Kate first met, as that meeting took place on a women's forum called Handbag. Although it's possible it was the same person because Susan B. at one point used an almost identical username for her email contact with Kate.