The Control System: Nobody Wants You To Be Free

All my life, as I've spoken about elsewhere, I've noticed a pattern of people around me trying to control me and keep watch of me. From the moment I left school, aged 16 and just about to turn 17, there was a subtle manipulation in terms of going out into the world and making my own way. It had some advantages - ie. not falling into the traps of the system so many of my friends did - but also felt stifling. When I first got into Music, again the controlling was pretty swift, before I was able to find my own feet. People who I thought had my best interests at heart and who I believed to be genuinely supporting me were often doing it for ulterior motives. I only realise this now because I see how these people have turned away from this Music and not taken it as seriously and supported as fully as they should have. In some cases very much putting obstacles in it's path. It's kind of funny, I've been accused of being judgemental in the past by certain people, but it's actually because I'm NOT judgemental that I walked into some of those traps. Creative and spiritual people often fall victim to this because they are so open, so they overlook the flaws and dysfunction in others.

I remember back in 2007, fresh into our awakening, Kate and I saw that the newly reformed Crowded House were playing at a festival in the Scottish Highlands. The festival was called The Outsider Festival. We were doing everything very spontaneously in those early months of awakening and so, despite not particularly being a fan of bands reforming and feeling that way about Crowded House, I'd never seen them live before, and we saw the whole event as a bit of an adventure. We simply bought two tickets and never even bothered with somewhere to stay. We were just going to head up there and stay out overnight or camp or something. We were excited by the freedom of this.

Before too long, people around us found out about it and decided they wanted to come along, so they bought tickets and the whole thing got reorganised and suddenly we were going up there in cars of these people and staying in B&B's, also organised by them. This is typical of what I've dealt with all my life... people finding out about something I'm doing and muscling in and taking over. I like to keep the peace and I don't like to upset or offend people if I can help it (or at least I used to be like that!) so out of politeness I would often go along with this interference to keep others happy.

It happened again when we went to Europe with SoulJahm. In the years building up to it, people were trying to find out about our lives, the Irish Susie B and French Yohan from the David Icke forum I often speak about. During the SoulJahm years every time somebody we knew came to visit us they'd never join in with what SoulJahm was about. We were not there on holiday or some travelling adventure. We were there to create Music, spread this Truth and plant seeds and find our people, since we couldn't find them in Edinburgh. When people would visit, they'd treat it like a holiday and go off sightseeing or to the pub or whatever. Yet they always seemed to ignore the Music, even when it was right in front of them.

I am reminded of something a psychic girl said to me during a conversation online in 2016. This is what she picked up:

"Mind control is a thing, however it isn't controlling you. It's limiting you and confusing your surroundings to hate you in particular"

It's quite incredible this girl picked this up from the little we spoke. We had one conversation and we never spoke again. Yet what she said rings so true and it's what I've been dealing with for years. It's literally like wherever I go (online or in real life), almost everybody turns against me in some way. They either downright don't like me or they oscillate back and forth between being nice to me and being nasty to me, quietly sending me hate. I could count on one hand the amount of people in my whole life who have stayed true to me from the beginning to the end or present, and still I'd have a few fingers to spare!

This has occurred with strangers as well as close friends and family members. It makes no difference. One of the reasons I've struggled to expose this and it's went on for so long is precisely because some of the people involved are close to me and I have wanted to protect them. It's been very confusing because you want to call them out for it but at the same time you want to be loyal. At times I have directly confronted them, even tried to speak to them about possession and so on but they usually don't want to hear it.

In SoulJahm , we ended up in Bogi's flat because of this kind of monitoring manipulation. After Kate died, I was stuck in Bogi's flat and wanted to go it alone. Someone who was there with me called someone from Edinburgh to come over to be with me without asking my permission. I was only informed the next day that he was about to get a flight over. So it was taken out of my control. That changed the course of events and I wasn't able to move freely as I had intended. This kind of thing has happened time and again throughout my life.

When I busked in Edinburgh it was going on. I was being monitored, I had people rudely looking directly in my money box to see what I was getting, so they could find out presumably if I was making enough money to be able to go off and support myself independently. I was getting harassed at times by people who resembled people close to me (same dysfunctions) but in a more extreme form.

When they couldn't stop me going out busking, next thing lockdown came on a global scale and since then more things outside have shut down, isolating and trapping people more and more within their homes. Travel chaos has increased in recent years... just yesterday, the latest being Heathrow Airport closing due to fire and cancelling thousands of flights. All of this is by design. I've seen it in my personal life throughout my whole adult life and now it's obvious on a worldwide scale. As I've said elsewhere, the control system is hierarchical so whatever goes on at the top filters down to the masses. This is one of the reasons I've spoken out against family in recent years more intensely. I'm not for splitting families up, but what I'm trying to show people is everybody models their family life and dynamics on those up top like the Royalty and political leaders, consciously or subconsciously. For centuries they have set the precedent of what family life should look like. The masses, particularly in the past, looked up to them as the model family and imitated them. However, there public persona is very different from what goes on behind closed doors where there is incredible dysfunction, way beyond what most people can comprehend. Copying them is one of the ways the ordinary family is kept under control. So I say throw that away, don't fall for that kind of thing. You don't have to fall out with your family, if you can help it, but don't buy into all the family propaganda that is put out, particularly by the conservative right-wing in politics. They are trying to make the public think this is some sort of virtuous and righteous way to live, to be a family man or woman. I see so many truthers falling for it but I'm not having it.

It's like they are trying to create bubbles around us (think back to lockdown!), like a kind of Truman Show situation, where you can't get out whatever direction you try. This has been my living experience now for many years. When I felt I was being controlled by certain people and tried to escape, tried to find others to break free with me (because you won't get far alone), they were either under this mind control influence and so would equally behave mean to me and resist me, or I could see they themselves were also trapped by people around them. This is why I was running around trying to make people aware of this way before this point. Nobody would listen to me. Perhaps now they will. Yet is it too late? Only the people themselves will decide this.